A Lot has happened within this year, Had a lot going on with my family and friends, done a lot of shopping, have tried going out to bars with my girl friends. When Suddenly I felt a different feeling, a feeling that i had to leave someone behind. Then there, It was the person i loved and wanted to spend the rest of my life with. I never really expected it. Just last month he was all that occupied my mind and heart. It just ended that way, I fell out of love. I often thought that if you really love somebody, the possible reasons of a break up would be sacrifice (for example: family matters, going abroad, etc.), and another is a third party. But in my case, it was just plain falling out of love, boredom maybe i could call it. I got bored of love, just like the line in that song:
So you sailed away Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay Love can be so boring
Nothing's quite the same now
I just say your name now
[Chorus]
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had You don't want me back
You're just the best I ever had
I would always say that we had good times, though as far as i could remember we had bad times more often. Thinking about it, what really caused the lost of interest? I really couldn't say that I was attracted to another, so far I'm going single and not even infatuated with anybody. Maybe I just reached the age where I want to be single! I want to do things freely, without anyone to stop me, or pressure me. I don't want anyone to get hurt anymore.
We've tried time and again, he went to my house, we talked on the phone, we went out watched a movie, then i just finally realized... i guess it's the end of it. This is where love ends. The feeling was different, it was now fading, i was sad for what was happening, but it just happened as it is, no matter how i tried. It's hard to leave someone behind, i never really expected this to come so soon, but it came and now he's hurt, "I'm sorry.." is all i could ever say to him now, i have failed to hold on to us. After the long and never ending problems, fights and lies, this is what finishes our story. A very subtle and calm feeling that urged me to feel freedom as an individual.
I don't know if i would miss him, could i still be capable of going back to him. You see, he's really different, the chemistry. We were happy with each other, we laughed a lot and shared the same thoughts and opinions. In a relationship all factors come together, chemistry/attraction, compatability, family, interests, stability, friends, and also priorities. We loved each other, But I guess that wasn't enough. LOVE is not ENOUGH. That became the painful truth for both of us. Going back to him.. i think it would just be a thought for some time. Like he told me, "your memories will be part of the skies"-to my thinking, "aba pinatay mo na agad ako" but now i understand that it would be better than to keep holding on and hoping. This is now the end of this chapter in my life.
We've tried time and again, he went to my house, we talked on the phone, we went out watched a movie, then i just finally realized... i guess it's the end of it. This is where love ends. The feeling was different, it was now fading, i was sad for what was happening, but it just happened as it is, no matter how i tried. It's hard to leave someone behind, i never really expected this to come so soon, but it came and now he's hurt, "I'm sorry.." is all i could ever say to him now, i have failed to hold on to us. After the long and never ending problems, fights and lies, this is what finishes our story. A very subtle and calm feeling that urged me to feel freedom as an individual.
I don't know if i would miss him, could i still be capable of going back to him. You see, he's really different, the chemistry. We were happy with each other, we laughed a lot and shared the same thoughts and opinions. In a relationship all factors come together, chemistry/attraction, compatability, family, interests, stability, friends, and also priorities. We loved each other, But I guess that wasn't enough. LOVE is not ENOUGH. That became the painful truth for both of us. Going back to him.. i think it would just be a thought for some time. Like he told me, "your memories will be part of the skies"-to my thinking, "aba pinatay mo na agad ako" but now i understand that it would be better than to keep holding on and hoping. This is now the end of this chapter in my life.
.jpg)
